Tuesday, February 28, 2012

Back On The Horse

A funny thing happened on the way to 2012...I stopped writing on my blog.  But another funny thing happened after I had my baby- I found that I really want to spend time with him, and really don't want to have to work full time anymore.  Turns out full time work kind of gets in the way of spending most of your time with your kid.  I get my sad eyes on every time I think of future summers that my child will spend mainly without me, just as most days will be spent mainly without me, unless something changes.  It wouldn't make me so sad if I was doing something I was passionate about during the days, but I'm not.  I respect my field and my employer, but the truth is I'm just working to make money right now.  My interests are elsewhere.

So what is a breadwinning mother to do?  For now I am practicing my writing.  It has grown very rusty over the years, but it's something I've always enjoyed and it's a marketable skill.  Perhaps some day I can turn it into a career with flexible hours.  But if nothing else it will give me a creative vent and let family and friends see what my family and I are up to.  So I'm back!  

I'm going to start off with a whimper, namely a crappily written post (this one) because I have very little time tonight and hardly any sleep, and am totally intimidated now that I actually want to, you know, write good and stuff.  Work at home, make money!  Yes, all that.  So here goes.

Today Owen gave a big old laugh that was longer and louder than any we've heard from him before.  The cause?  Indy came over to him barking and then licked Owen's feet and hands.  This was apparently the most hilarious thing that has happened to my son in his short life.  It was very sweet.  Owen has laughed at very random things since he started laughing (which was only a couple weeks ago).  He has several times laughed like crazy when being carried outdoors in the Ergo carrier, and looking up at the face of whoever is carrying him.  He doesn't laugh when being carried indoors, just outdoors, and only sometimes.  Who knows why.  Another time he laughed as I repeated the same words over and over.  Something along the lines of "somebody's cranky, he's going to go to bed soon I think I think."

In addition to laughing, my son has been practicing not napping and getting so tired that he is a mess by evening.  The only time he will nap predictably is in the car (and even that is not a surefire thing), which is distressing because in 5 weeks he will start daycare, where naps need to take place in a crib, in the same room that everything else is going on, and without somebody holding and feeding him until he falls asleep first.  I would like to try a short pre-naptime routine including a book to see if that would help, since our bedtime routine seems to have worked really well for nights.  However, I am finding that there are very few "take a nap" books, as compared to the bazillion and one bedtime stories available.  So I am contemplating writing one myself.  I figure I can come up with some photos of Owen sleeping and maybe some of his crib, or from the perspective of him lying in his crib, and come up with something cute.  It's worth a shot- wish me luck!  I think it would be a fun project if I can find the time to work on it.

Time to get in bed now- I have been trying to get myself to go to bed at 9:30, so I can wake up at 5:30 and get ready before Owen gets up for the day.  I don't think I've gone to bed at 9:30 since middle school, so this is a challenge.  However having an alarm clock that YOU CANNOT MAKE STOP no matter what is a huge motivator.  Good night all!